A way of regarding situations, facts, etc, and judging their relative importance
The proper or accurate point of view or the ability to see it; objectivity
Perspective. We were all given the amazing ability to be able to have perspective on life. Although we were each given different levels and intensities, we can all call on a little perspective in all situations. I have a friend who is amazing with this. She has an eternal perspective that is never ending, hence the eternal part. She can go through the toughest time, but she is always aware that it is a small moment in time, and draws comfort in that. I, on the other hand have a very physical perspective. When times get hard I can look at a situation and know that in time it will pass, and seem so small, but in the moment my emotions take over.
Last night Daniel and I said our final goodbyes. I had been preparing for it for a long time, but somehow what the actual event brought was worse than I had imagined. Which was really surprising because I am very good at imaging the worst. We decided to skype and then to end with a phone call. What it turned into was a crying fest starting with a text to inform me it was time to skype, the actual skype, then the phone call, and then a few last text messages. I think we were both surprised at how hard it was, and finding words was difficult. Of course I want him to go way more then I want him to stay. Of course I am so proud of him and excited for the adventure he is embarking on. Of course I have enough perspective to know that we are going to be a-okay, but that didn't and doesn't make it easier. I still had to say goodbye to my best friend and the person I shared everything with for so long. I wanted to tell him I didn't know how I was going to deal, or how I was going to BYU next fall. I wanted to tell him that he was the reason I went back to BYU for the second semester and I am afraid of what this next semester will bring. I wanted to tell him that I am so afraid of how things could change between us, but I didn't. I didn't tell him any of those things because whether I felt them or not, it doesn't matter. He is going on a mission, and that is where he need to be. I support that 100%.
I don't think that people who are no of my faith understand the seriousness of what Daniel has decided to do, or how important it is to us. I don't think I have ever done a good job explaining why, and I know many of you wonder. Daniel, like me believes in my church and it's teachings, and he wants to be able to offer that to others. This is not like other missions that many other go on. This is not 2 weeks, this is 2 years. Daniel will wake up early, read scriptures, have prayer, and set out for a day serving and teaching in his area. He will then come home and be in bed by 1030. He will do this everyday except on p-days (preparation day). On p-day he will have the day to go shopping, do laundry, and write to his family and friends. Writing, by the way, is the only form of communication he will have expect for Mother's day and Christmas. Those two days he will be able call his family and speak to them. I guess I am writing this to help others understand. Many ask why? Why do this? Why work so hard? The reason is faith. Daniel like other missionaries chose this because he believes that what he is giving up is less important than what he is giving to others. He is so dedicated to the Lord that it was never a question whether he would serve or not. Daniel is choosing to miss weddings, holidays, graduations, nieces and nephews births, family gatherings, girls, a social life, movies, books, and tv shows. On a personal level he will miss Linsey's wedding, 2 years of my time at BYU, his sister's state Jr. Miss I will be attending, and I think the hardest one to deal with, time with me. He didn't make this choice out of spite or because he was pressured. He made it because he believes it is the right thing to do. It is an amazing thing for a 19 year old boy to be so dedicated to something that he doesn't even second guess his decision. I have been very blessed to have him as an example in my life. I think his dedication helps me to put a little perspective in my own life.
Our goodbye was really hard. One of the hardest things I have had to do in my life. I told him that it was going to be okay, and that we would both benefit, but all I could think about was how I was going to get through it all. We both cried a lot, but we also laughed. We talked about our favorite memories together, and man did we have some good times. We ended our conversation with many goodbyes and I love yous, and I got off the phone. Luck for me I have both my amazing sister at my house, so I went and climbed in bed with them. I cried a lot, but the girls got me talking and it seemed like I was going to be okay. Heather and Linsey would make me laugh so hard that I would start crying. I had completely forgotten how much fun it is to have us all together. I'm very grateful that they were there and still are that for me. Daniel sent me a couple last text messages that ended up being really cheesy. Leave it to Daniel to put humor into a hard situation.
This morning I woke up and didn't have that moment where I had forgotten. I was afraid I would forget and reach for my phone to call him, but thank goodness I didn't. I wrote him a letter already through dearelder.com. They send the letters and packages out on the same day you write it. He went into the MTC at 130 today and he should get my packages around 330. I also sent him a goodie basket. It made me feel better to be able to at least write him and send him some goodies. The hard part is waiting for letters back. With only getting to write once a week it can take awhile, but I'm a patient girl. Here is the goodie basket I sent....
Perspective is a wimpy friend. In the darkest of hours and time it will abandon you and another will take its place. Pain. But pain can only stay around for so long. Pain can't outlast laughter and happiness that comes with life. Pain will leave you in a heartbeat and perspective will come back. From there you can see an eternity and how this one thing is just a small dot on the big picture we call life.
Until next time,
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
So first things first! My surgeon=big jerk, so I will not be having my surgery in a week. I am very sad because that means my face will still look like this for Linsey's wedding, but at the same time its going to be nice not having to deal with the pain just quite yet. I changed surgeons and will keep yall posted on when the new date with be. We are still hoping for a summer date, but we will see. Okay now on to what this post is really about!!
I WENT TO DANIEL'S FAREWELL! Man, it feels so good to say that! I have been wanting to talk about it on here forever, but since Daniel didn't know (well he did, but we will get into that later) I couldn't. So Friday I flew up to Idaho Falls, Idaho for a weekend of fun. Daniel was had a prior engagement, so his family picked me up from the air port. It was so good to see everyone! I had missed them all! I had to wait a couple of hours for Daniel and his sister Sarah to get home. As soon as he walked in his face lit up. Seriously my heart melted! I had forgotten how much I really missed him. He gave me a huge hug and then he said "I have to tell you something. I've known you were coming since Monday.". Okay really I wasn't surprised at all. I was more surprised that he didn't find out sooner since I had had this planned for over 3 weeks. But really at that point I didn't care. We were finally back together and it felt like we had never been apart. The rest of the night we spent talking and laughing and ended up staying up way too late, but hey what are summers for? Not that Daniel and I didn't stay up late during the year....
Saturday I woke up early and got ready so that when Daniel got up I was ready for whatever the day would bring me. What I didn't expect the day to bring me was me changing right back into grubbys and hitting a near by farm up. Daniel's little sister and brother Becca and Adam get sheep every year and then show them at the end of the summer, so we went to go watch them take care of their cute furry friends. The farm also had baby bunnies, baby chickens, and horses. There were other things but lets just stick to whats important. I was in love! Nothing better then baby animals and spending the whole day with my best friend. After the farm, Daniel and I went back to his backyard (more like open space behind his house) and played with the kittens and explored. It is so beautiful there in the summer! I could have stayed outside all day. We then went inside and cleaned up and watched Sarah's Jr. Miss video. It was almost as exciting as the first time when we didn't know that she won! Next up was getting chairs for the farewell luncheon and the park. By that time the rest of the party had arrived. Daniel went off to play basketball and I just hung out with the rest of the family. That night we celebrated Daniel's oldest brother James' birthday. It was great to be there, and Daniel's sister-in-law Melissa made an amazing baseball cake! We ended up playing Ticket to Ride till all hours of the night, until his parents swooped us off to bed. I was very grateful for their swoop that night! Here are some pictures from the day! I'm going to apologize now for the picture overload!
The start of many cute pictures of us!!!
Sunday was a very busy day! It was finally the day of Daniel's farewell AND Daniel and I's ultra special day! So basically one of the greatest days of my life! In the morning I helped get things ready for the farewell. Oh! I don't know if I told you this but I had Sister Lucio and Eva make me cookies for his farewell! They turned out amazing! After I helped Sister Wood out I stated working on getting ready. I wanted everything to look perfect that day, and I must say it turned out pretty dang close. I did my own hair, make up, AND dressed myself! I was blown away! I think Daniel was too, but that's another story. We left about an hour early for church so we could save seats. So many people came to hear Daniel talk! It was amazing, and so was his talk! He talked about service and the different reasons we do it, and the most Godly. OF COURSE I literally started crying right as he sat down on the stand even before he started talking. Trying to not ugly cry in public and keep your make up looking good was a difficult task! After church we came on home and set things up. So many people showed up and everything looked wonderful! I changed my outfit for the farewell, and brought a little Texas flare to Idaho. Here are some pictures
Daniel, his parents, and grandparents
The farewell was wonderful! We were all exhausted by the time everyone left, but we worked ourselves back up for more fun. Daniel and I went and took super cute pictures, and later we played kick ball. Well really they played kick ball, I just watched and played with the babies. It started raining and those dang Woods just kept on playing! It reminded me of my family. Sunday night me and Dan just kinda hung out. It was one of those perfect nights. Here are some MORE pictures. Please do not cry from the cuteness!
Monday I got to sleep in a bit while Daniel played basketball. I woke up and got my stuff together and got ready so I could spend my time with Daniel and his family. When he got home we went to the cemetery to decorate and clean his relatives graves. It was a really neat experience! After the cemetery we headed back to his house to eat lunch and hang out for a bit. Sadly my time came to an end and I had to leave. I basically started crying the moment I hugged his parents. Hugging his younger siblings only made it worse. I will be seeing them in October, but Daniel won't be apart of any of that for another 2 years. The ride the airport went way too fast, and because the Idaho Falls airport is so small we got to sit in his car and talk till it was time to leave. Saying goodbye to him was one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. 2 years is a long time and I am really going to miss him. He is going to do amazing and have a wonderful time, but I do hope it goes by fast. Daniel leaves next Wednesday, June 8th for the MTC. As for me, I will be starting a love affair with my mail man for the next 2 years. I'm already estimating how fast I can get cookies to Indiana (that's where Daniel is serving), how many weeks are left, how many chain links I would have to cut to count down the days, and how often is too often to complain. Pretty much life is good. As always I hope this finds y'all well!
Until next time,
P.S. Daniel got me flowers!! He is so cute!!