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Saturday, April 30, 2011

Since I have been home

     So I have come to realize a few things 1. I haven't given Devon a shout out and I decided to do that just now. Shout out! and 2. Some of you think I'm depressed, so I am here to set the record straight. I am not depressed and actually I enjoy life very much, I have just run into a few bumps along the way. Another thing I have come to realize is that some of you think I should wait awhile after Daniel makes me mad to blog about it, but to this I say: If I wait then wouldn't you guys miss all the good emotions? I think so! So really y'all should be thanking me for enriching your life with my emotions! You are welcome!
      Well I have officially been home 9 days. Its been really...well different, but good. So I got home on a Thursday night, and I decided to start things off with a bang and unpack. I thought packing was bad, yeah unpacking is worse. It took a couple of hours to get everything in its place, but it was worth it. It really sunk in that freshmen year was over. It really flew by, but maybe that is because everything seems to go by fast in retrospect. I spent Friday, Saturday, and Sunday sleeping, watching Friends, eating, and tanning. Now I have nothing to show for this tanning because my skin sucks, but that's okay! Monday I had a appointment at Children's for my internship and then I took off for Oklahoma City.
       My sister Heather, my brother-in-law Shawn, and my 2 year old nephew Gavin live in OKC. I stayed with them till Thursday. We had a really good time! We ran errands, stayed up late, watched the most awful movies ever, and went to the zoo. Heather keeps a little boy so we took him with us. There was a new baby elephant who pretty much made the whole thing more then worth it! Here are some pictures of the day!

If you look really closely you can see the baby elephant! He is so cute!! Fun fact: Elephants carry their babies for almost 2 years before giving birth
      After having a blast with Heather I headed back home. Friday I had a ortho appointment that almost made me want to kill myself it hurt so bad!! Hopefully I only have one more before my surgery. Oh and for those of you who don't know about my surgery: I am getting my jaw broken because my bite isn't correct and well frankly I need to lose weight and they will be wiring my mouth shut for 6 weeks and putting me on a liquid only diet. And that should all go down the beginning of June approximately 8 weeks before Linsey's wedding! Anywho Friday night I spent the evening with Devon (shout out!)! We had a really good time hanging out, catching up, and exploring Dallas! It was a great night! I have another week before I start work, and then my life is basically over, but I don't mind! It's been good being home, and hey look I don't think there was negative thing in this post! Ha! I told you I wasn't depressed! Well as always I hope this finds you well!
Until next time,
Muah!

Monday, April 25, 2011

Catch up!

    So A LOT has happened since I last posted. Sorry it took me so long! That last week was pure craziness! Finals, last minute things with friends, cleaning, and packing like crazy kept me pretty busy! I did a lot of fun things my last week in Provo. For one Daniel and I got back on good terms. Let's not go into detail here, but I am glad to have him back in my life and I missed him oh-so-much. Everyone chill out because were just friends, and well to tell you the truth I'm back in Texas so even the idea of us is over. But here are some things I did my last week!
We had our Ward end of the year party! It was not the best party I have ever been to because it was a bit awkward, but we had a blast none the less!

Jessica and I had our last date night! We went to the mall and shopped around and then to dinner. Then we picked up some movies on the way home. We were in the middle of watching the second one when Daniel called and wanted to .....

go ice blocking! For those of you who haven't gone, what you do is take a block of ice, put a towel over it, sit on it and then ride it down the hill. It is really fun! We had a blast!
After ice blocking we went to walmart, and then me and Daniel just sat in my car and talked till like 3. It was great and pretty much just like old times! Loved it!
Jessica and I spent most of the week packing and packing and PACKING!! It took like forever! I was able to leave a lot of stuff in a storage unit up in Provo, but I still had a crap load of stuff to bring home.

This is what happens when you don't finish what you started and its 4 A.M. Jessica had so much stuff on her bed that she had to sleep under it.      As you can see my last week was a blast! I didn't sleep much at all! I spent most of my nights up with my roommates or out with Daniel! It was so much fun and I wouldn't change it for anything. Saying goodbye was a totally different story! I literally cried (and still do) my eyes out saying goodbye to Daniel. I don't feel as bad since he cried really hard too. It was really weird saying goodbye to my best friend and knowing I won't see them for another 2 1/2 years (because of his mission), but I sure and glad this year is over, and summer is here! I start working on May 9th, and until then I will just be hanging out! I hope that this finds you well!
Until next time,
Muah!
P.S. FRESHMEN YEAR IS OVER!!

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

A girl's guide to the worst breakup ever

    Hello there! It's been a long time since I last blogged and I do apologize about that! I have done some fun things in the last week and some not so fun things, but lets start with the fun things. I hung out with my good friend Jessica and we had a really fun girl's night. We went and took pictures (LOVE THEM!) and then went to the Salt Lake Temple! It is so beautiful!! After the temple we hit up Red Lobster! It was a blast. I laughed more then I have in a long time that night! Then Friday rolled around. I packed up my stuff and hit the road to go see Annie and Darrin and their girls Tommye-lynn and Brylee. It was a great weekend! We slept in, went swimming, had a fire, made SMORES!!, ate really bad food, and chatted. I loved it! Sunday I came back home and I have been way bummed ever since.
      This week is crazy. It is going by fast, but also so slow. I leave in exactly a week from today! I am sad and ready. I hate hate hate BYU right now but I believe that has more to do with what a boy did to me here then anything else. I have finals starting on Saturday and of course cleaning and packing. Its going to be crazy and I should be studying my butt off, but all I do is lay in bed and watch Friends. Okay that's a lie, I do other stuff too but if I am home, I'm watching Friends. But I guess this is better then what I want to do which is lay in my bed and never ever come out. My sister-in-law said that after one of her breakups she stayed in her bed and didn't come out for 7 days. I'm thinking I should have done this. See if I would have just stayed in my bed then maybe I would be over it by now and I could act like a normal person. Unfortunately that didn't happen and I don't act like a normal person. I just cry and complain and get mad and then cry some more. I wish crying made you lose weight because I would probably be like 20 pounds by now. Well in my time just laying around I have come up with a guide that should be followed with any breakup. Now if you don't care about the boy then no worries, this is for your I was in love with him and he dumped me breakup. So here it goes....
1. Just go ahead and drop your phone down the toilet.... he isn't going to call
2. Stop checking your facebook a million times a day...he won't message you
3. When you see him put on a huge fake smile and prepare to small talk...(warning-small talk is AWKWARD so be prepared)
4. DO NOT and I repeat DO NOT look at pictures of the two of you.... trust me it doesn't go over well
5. Delete all the songs you listened to together or that meant something... I haven't done this one because that's a lot of songs, but it would probably save me some crying
6. When he brings up another girl just act like you didn't hear him
7. Change your routes so you don't run into him
8. MOVE?!
9. Delete his number and don't memorize it...easier said then done
10. Stop caring... this won't happen so just pretend you don't care
      So pretty much ready to get home. I know that it won't make things any easier but at least I won't be reminded every day of this year. I wish I could forget it all. I wish it had never happened. If I had known that it would end like this then I wouldn't have gone through with it because it's not worth the emptiness and loneliness and tears that comes with it. I am sure one day I will look back on it and see some good in it, but all I see now is someone who I thought would never hurt me.... and oh wait... HE DID. I know this post is total blah, but I figured that I would go ahead and post at least one post about this whole thing. And I don't mean a oh everything is fine we are going to be friends post. I mean a I am not okay and no we don't even talk anymore because its all over post. It's over. I can't even get it through my head that it's over. And I don't even know how to feel. Half me is like okay well at least you know now that he doesn't care about you and now you can move on, and the other half of me is just like what? Its funny stuff happens, or I guess more like doesn't happen between us and I still find my self feeling surprised. Like why can't I just let all the hope gone? I don't understand why I still think something will change, but a small part of me does. I think that as time goes on and it becomes more and more obvious that we aren't friends then I will realize that there is nothing to hold on to anymore. I think I'm getting there with every day we don't talk and don't see each other, but it's hard because we are still thrown together. Life goes on is what you will say to me, and to that I will say yes you are right, it does go on. But for now in my small world in Provo at BYU my life has pretty much stopped. I am excited to get home and have start again. Well I hope that this post finds you well because it sure doesn't find me well. Luckily it won't be long until I'm back to my old self!
 And until then,
Muah!

Monday, April 4, 2011

Oh the affects of General Conference

           So last weekend was General Conference weekend. It was fantastic and I loved all the insights that were given. If you don't know what General Conference is then you can see this link http://lds.org/general-conference/about-general-conference?lang=eng and learn all about it! Well the great thing about General Conference is that it refreshes you and helps you to see things you need to work on as a person. Okay, I'm not saying that I enjoy the "Oh crap I really need to get it together" part of Conference, but it does help me to be motivated to try a little harder to be a little better. Another great thing about Conference is thee is always stuff said that applies to you, so of course it got me thinking.
            Forgiving and letting the past go is not something that I am good at. I hold grudges like you wouldn't believe. I would even go as far as to say I'm a pro at it. Oh yes I will act like everything is fine and the you are fully forgiven, but really I secretly hate your guts and can't stand being around you. Now these types of grudges are very excessive, so I try to use them sparingly. But this weekend there was a lot of talk of letting go of the hate, hurt, pain, regret, guilt, and giving it over to the Lord. So today I put my plan in action. Have I told you that I'm bad at the whole let me just let you walk all over me and not care thing? Yeah, so usually my apologies go something like this. "I am so sorry, blah blah blah. But you did this and this and this and this (on and on). BUT I am sorry." That is how they usually look, especially if I am the one who feels like they deserve the apology. But if I am saying I am sorry I really am, I just also feel like I should call you out. I think pride is something that is far too active in our society today, so I try not to feed into it. I mean how many relationships and moments are ruined because we are too prideful to say and ACTUALLY ADMIT that we screwed up. Come on people! We are not perfect and being not perfect we screw over people all the time! So why is it so hard to say, "You know what I really screwed up here. I am so sorry that my (usually selfish) actions hurt you and affected you in a negative way." I am not saying I am perfect at this or that it is easy for me to do it, but its something I'm working at. I think that its hardest to say you are sorry when you were the one who was really hurt in the process, but just because someone hurt you doesn't mean you have the right to act like a jerk to them. Yeah, sorry you don't. Yes there are going to be people that hurt you and screw you over all your life, but you just smile and move on. The problem comes when YOU respond in a negative way, then its back on your head. I don't know about y'all but being prideful about not saying you are sorry is not something I want hanging over my head when I get to Heaven. And I hope you guys don't see this as being preachy, because 1. this is my blog ( If you don't like it then GET OFF) 2. I have absolutely no right to judge any of you so know that it is not what i am doing and 3. I am really just thinking out loud....I mean online....
      Well that is my deep thought for the day! Gosh that was like almost exhausting! But moving on.... I went to the doctor today and the results are.... I have a stress fracture on my tibia! Yay! Not! So I am in this....
for the next 2 weeks at least. I can't do any straining exercise for 3 to 4 weeks and pretty much no half marathon. I am not really sure how to feel about the half marathon. Like half me is like yay! No running 13.1 miles and sweating and gasping for breath and my ankle wanting to fall off. But on the other hand I was really pumped about it. I really wanted it to be something me and Heather did together, but I think we are going to try to do one in Boise next fall. But can I be honest here? What really sucks is with no exercising I CAN'T EAT! I burning like 1800 calories a day (if that) which means I can only eat like 800 calories a day, which SUCKS! So that is probably the worst part of this. Really I was expecting something like this. Steroids shot my bones so things like this aren't out of the usual. The doctor told me I needed to start calcium and vitamin D and be in the sun to activate the vitamin D. Now he may or may not have said like 15 minutes a week, but I think just in case I will have to start tanning. I mean twist my arm, but if I have to do it then I have to do it! Oh the things I do for my health! :)
         Other then that I have a crazy week ahead of me! Today and tomorrow I shall spend my life cramming for a test that I feel like I know NOTHING about. Wednesday I have lunch with my amazing brother Corby before he heads off for the summer. Thursday I have a day date with Jessica (not my roommate). We are going to the slc temple and to have a fun photo shoot! And Friday I leave to go to Darrin and Analisa's for the weekend.
      Actually fun story about that. So they invited me up right? Well of course I want to go like SO BAD because I miss them and I love hanging out with them, but guess who is also going up that way this weekend? You guessed it. My darling bff Daniel. OH! And his whole family because you see his oldest brother and my oldest brother live in the same area and happen to be in the SAME WARD. Which means they go to church together. Yeah, pretty crazy! Well it's Daniel's oldest brother's baby's blessing so his whole family will be there. Not wanting to look like a total creeper stalker I have decided to stay home from church. I mean how awkward would that be if I just strolled in there and was like "Oh! Hey Wood family! Let me pretend like I didn't know you were ALL going to be here." Yeah no thank you. But I am looking forward to this weekend more then I have for any others in a long time! It is going to be a blast and of course y'all will hear all about it! I hope this post finds you well, as always!
Until I need to procrastinate again,
Muah!

Saturday, April 2, 2011

What I say and what I mean are not the same thing

       So I have been thinking about this one a lot lately. As a girl I find myself saying things all the time but really meaning something completely different. So I figured I would make a funny post off all the funny things women say and what they really mean! Enjoy because this one sure made me laugh!
Fine
    This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.

Five Minutes     If she is getting dressed, this is half an hour.
Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given 5 more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.

Nothing      This is the calm before the storm. This means "something" and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with "nothing" usually end in "fine".

Go Ahead    This is a dare, not permission, DON'T DO IT!

Loud Sigh     Although not actually a word, the loud sigh is often misunderstood by men. A "Loud Sigh" means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you over "Nothing".

That's Okay       This is one of the most dangerous statements that woman can make to a man. "That's Okay" means that she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.
Thanks
      This is the least used of all words in the female vocabulary. If a woman is thanking you, do not question it. Just say you're welcome and back out of the room slowly.

I Need
I want

We Need
I want

It's your decision
The correct decision should be obvious by now

Do whatever you want
You are going to pay for this later

We need to talk
I need to complain, and you need to listen

Sure...go ahead
I don't want you to

I'm not upset
Of course I'm upset, you moron!

I'm not emotional! I'm not overreacting!
I have a server case of PMS

I need new shoes
The other 40 pair are simply the wrong shade

How much do you love me?
I did something today you're really going to hate

You have to learn to communicate
Just agree with me

Are you listening to me?
Too late, you're already dead

Yes
No

No
No

Maybe
No

I'm sorry
You'll be sorry

I was wrong
Not as wrong as you

I'm not yelling!
Of course I'm yelling, this is important!

Yep
This is one of two things. 1. You are annoying me beyond my understanding or 2. I'm going to see how bad you really want to talk to me beacause this will force you to come up with something
          In other news 18 days till I'm on my way back to Tejas! And I have lost a total of 19 pounds! I started my application and all that mess for my AWESOME INTERNSHIP with my one true love (hope he isn't reading this)! I can't wait! Ankle is still bummed, so working out is a negative. But hopefully I will be back at it soon because not working out= no eating because you burn like zero calories! Tonight I AM ACTUALLY GOING OUT! So hopefully I have some great stories to tell y'all! Oh and if anyone can find me a magic eraser that can erase parts of your life a.k.a. the last 7 months of mine, that would be great! So keep a look out for me! Hope this finds you guys well!
Until my next wonderful post,
Muah!